unbearable
"so extreme that you cannot deal with the pain, feeling etc" -- macmillan dictionary
Qualities
equanimity
"a state of psychological stability and composure which is undisturbed by experience of or exposure to emotions, pain, or other phenomena that may cause others to lose the balance of their mind" -- wikipedia
self-satisfaction
"a usually smug satisfaction with oneself or one's position or achievements" -- merriam-webster.com
stubborn
"refusing to change your ideas or to stop doing something" -- Britannica Dictionary
weirdness
weirdness, strangeness or oddness, calibrated as a feeling
airy fairy
Insubstantial or impractical --American Heritage Dictionary
sublime
of high moral or intellectual value; elevated in nature or style; worthy of adoration or reverence; inspiring awe --vocabulary.com
provocative
serving or tending to provoke, excite, or stimulate; stimulating discussion or exciting controversy --vocabulary.com
irritability
becoming annoyed very easily --dictionary.cambridge.org
abusive
treating someone badly or cruelly, esp. physically --dictionary.cambridge.org
virginity
There are cultural and religious traditions that place special value and significance on this state, predominantly towards unmarried females, associated with notions of personal purity, honor, and worth --Wikipedia
overkill
An excess of something (such as a quantity or an action) beyond what is required or suitable for a particular purpose --merriam-webster.com
masterpiece
a work done with extraordinary skill.
especially : a supreme intellectual or artistic achievement —merriam-webster.com
"pass the buck"
attributing to another person or group one's own responsibility --request
beginner's luck
refers to the supposed phenomenon of novices experiencing disproportionate frequency of success or succeeding against an expert in a given activity --wikipedia