togetherness
the pleasant feeling of being united with other people in friendship and understanding --dictionary.cambridge.org
Qualities
dizziness
"such as feeling faint, woozy, weak or unsteady. Dizziness that creates the false sense that you or your surroundings are spinning or moving is called vertigo." -- mayoclinic.org
life
"the condition that distinguishes animals and plants from inorganic matter..." -- Google dictionary
forbiddenness
"The state, quality or measure of being forbidden" -- wiktionary.org
prudence
the skill of side-stepping trouble or embarrassment, like having the prudence to avoid risks or the prudence to prepare for the unexpected --vocabulary.com
reluctant
feeling or showing aversion, hesitation, or unwillingness --merriam-webster.com
zealotry
"fanatical and uncompromising pursuit of religious, political, or other ideals" -- Google dictionary
out of control
"no longer possible to manage" -- Google dictionary
backlash
"a strong negative reaction by a large number of people, especially to a social or political development" -- Google dictionary
unbearable
"so extreme that you cannot deal with the pain, feeling etc" -- macmillan dictionary
equanimity
"a state of psychological stability and composure which is undisturbed by experience of or exposure to emotions, pain, or other phenomena that may cause others to lose the balance of their mind" -- wikipedia
self-satisfaction
"a usually smug satisfaction with oneself or one's position or achievements" -- merriam-webster.com
stubborn
"refusing to change your ideas or to stop doing something" -- Britannica Dictionary
weirdness
weirdness, strangeness or oddness, calibrated as a feeling
airy fairy
Insubstantial or impractical --American Heritage Dictionary