choicelessness
"offering or permitting no choice" -- merriam-webster.com
Qualities
togetherness
the pleasant feeling of being united with other people in friendship and understanding --dictionary.cambridge.org
doggedness
"great determination to do something, even if it is very difficult" -- Cambridge dictionary
dizziness
"such as feeling faint, woozy, weak or unsteady. Dizziness that creates the false sense that you or your surroundings are spinning or moving is called vertigo." -- mayoclinic.org
quality: I don't give a f***
It can be an attachment, but for spiritual students, it is a detachment inasmuch as it is forces responsibility, caring, and scrupulousness.
life
"the condition that distinguishes animals and plants from inorganic matter..." -- Google dictionary
forbiddenness
"The state, quality or measure of being forbidden" -- wiktionary.org
prudence
the skill of side-stepping trouble or embarrassment, like having the prudence to avoid risks or the prudence to prepare for the unexpected --vocabulary.com
reluctant
feeling or showing aversion, hesitation, or unwillingness --merriam-webster.com
zealotry
"fanatical and uncompromising pursuit of religious, political, or other ideals" -- Google dictionary
autonomy
"the quality or state of being self-governing" -- merriam-webster.com
out of control
"no longer possible to manage" -- Google dictionary
backlash
"a strong negative reaction by a large number of people, especially to a social or political development" -- Google dictionary
unbearable
"so extreme that you cannot deal with the pain, feeling etc" -- macmillan dictionary
equanimity
"a state of psychological stability and composure which is undisturbed by experience of or exposure to emotions, pain, or other phenomena that may cause others to lose the balance of their mind" -- wikipedia