request: leaving behind what you thought you knew and starting afresh.
pathway of negation
“The Void is a trap for the aspirant who follows the pathway of negation. It does not present itself as an option to the pathway of affirmation, for to such a pathway, voidness would present itself as total nonlove” - I: Reality & Subjectivity.
awkward
"causing or feeling uneasy embarrassment or inconvenience" -- Google dictionary.
"a house divided against itself cannot stand"
request: abbreviation of Mark 3:25.
statement: there is nothing I can possibly do that God would condemn
Request: any condemnation merely seems to be a function of the spiritual ego and, I presume, karma.
resolution of animal / angel conflict
"Mankind lives in the realm of tension between emotional instincts and the counterbalancing power of spiritual awakening (i.e., the animal/angel conflict)" -- I: Reality & Subjectivity.
"one can only go as high as they have been low"
From "Transcending the Levels of Consciousness."
doing nothing as a spiritual practice
Leads to the discovery that you are not the doer.
enjoyment
request: maybe not the same as joy (cal. 540)?
duality
"the quality or state of having two different or opposite parts or elements" -- merriam-webster.
extinction
request: seems a bit more severe than death... but maybe they're the same?
cozy
"giving a feeling of comfort, warmth, and relaxation" -- Google dictionary.
going down the rabbit hole
“To enter into a situation or begin a process or journey that is particularly strange, problematic, difficult, complex, or chaotic, especially one that becomes increasingly so as it develops or unfolds” — collinsdictionary.
repeated often enough, a choice becomes a karmic pattern
Request: i.e. you no longer have to choose it.
not allowing thoughts to arise
Rejecting thoughts, in contrast to letting them pass without particular focus.